Step 1: 

Record.

Record yourself saying why you do not want to.

For example: I do not want to exercise today because I am tired. ( I ran out of storage lol but i

Also, know that you are not alone and everybody goes through this. The important thing to keep in mind is to identify this as a need. We need movement. It is part of life. 

Step 2:

Validate.

For Example: You have been waking up very early and swimming in the ocean in the hot sun for long hours. You traveled from Florida to Cartagena to Barranquilla to Santa Marta-es normal que te sientas cansada. And it is okay. It only reasonable to feel physically tired. 

Step 3: 

Pivot. 

It all starts in the mind. 

If you feel tired-problem solve.

 Rest. 

You listen to your body and your body will thank you. A barrier I jump and I think a lot of people have this hurdle too-is allowing your mind to not hold yourself to standards that change when life pivots. When life pivots I pivot too... ask questions. Where do you feel tired? In my chest in my arms...of course. I have been swimming. If I do not feel like doing yoga that is ok. But I love training handstands...i love being by the pool and I need ankle flexion. I Love dancing. So just do what you love. You trining for the NOW and a better future. Show up. Show up for you to have a good life. To have fun. Show up bc if you don't you are missing special moments.

This helped me and I ended up walking outside barefoot while my family slept and I sat on a park bench to write this. Then I did ankle mobility squats, I hung on the monkey bars and realized my body was asking me to do hanging abdominal crunches. So I did 10 (3 sets of 3-4) I went down the slide. I felt better. I like being by myself sometimes. Exercise is good because it is good ME time.

Step 4: 

Take it easy.

Self limiting belief: If I don't show up I will regret it later. 

I replace that self limiting belief with: 

If I rest I can show up better tomorrow. Just have it in mind to rest and if you did it any way you will just feel proud. ( I do feel proud. And you should always be proud of yourself for trying mi vida).

Step 5:

 Pray. 

God, please- guide me. And let me be a light for other people. I praise you for all the good and bad moments of my life. I have so many thoughts-I want to put myself out there but I feel so enredada. 

Goal: I want a spotlight and to shine

Fear: I am going to be pierced in the heart by too much negativity. 

I replace that self limiting belief with: 

Wait a minute; I'm a black person. I come from standing on the shoulders of giants. Women in my lineage who had to derive such insurmountable resilience just to survive and get free. Not only that-they thrived. Educating themselves and paving ways. Thrive. It's my duty. It's not about emotions it's responding to my calling.

I learned-that I should forgive because I follow Christ and I will be blessed. Not because others are not wrong and that it shouldn't hurt. But if you can forgive me-and your traitors; then surely I too will and do forgive mascaras when shown with grace. Because holy spirit you abide in me. Thank you for my family. Even though I'm frustrated. Thank you.-Amen.

Step 6: 

Who are you accountabile to everyday? Christ. I have a team but I am the leader. So earnestly-Jesus/mi esposo...it is day 2 of training an you are telling me to go. My dad is tired but my grandma I layed out her pajamas so she can move from the sofa couch and I layed out the sofa bed for my dad. Today, I still lacked waiting patiently when church was over and I had to wait with my parents cuz we pastors kids.

Step 7:

I got a little off track...I should not boast about my good acts because it is good to act in private. I think lots of women, like myself at times eat a lot of breads and sweets and dairy  is getting a belly that protrudes and hangs. We eat because it's habit at times, not because we don't know to eat more wholesome vegetables. Some of us, we become stubborn and irritated when we slowly gain weight but can't stop our comfortable self limiting habits. Y eso me molesta. I do that to myself. It seems so inconsiderate. I do not understand why before I tried to be an olympian and run the women's 400 m...I thought it was outlandish and people would laugh at my inathletisicsm. It seems impossible. I think-I am like a kid who when you take away sleep she gets patana. Pero, I need to consider trying becuase  I grew. I grew resentful. 

So what if it is a pipe dream? If David can do it...I can surely too. As when God opens doors, they cannot be shut. And I am open to recieve all the good things the universe /God has for me while I find resources and people to help me on my journey. 

I AM out of shape. My right knee hurts...and I just turned 27 and I am female. I only ran the womens 400 m in D3 track in my early 20's and burned out quickly at the 200-300 m mark. I'd like to improve for myself to show I can do it and make my country proud. I know it's a pipe dream but if David Goggins can become a navy seal I can become an Olympian. I am in Santa Marta, Colombia. 

I am a powerful woman. And I am beautiful...I do not easily but my head down. I am beloved and I try to always hold my head high. Aveces me encuentro con problemas pero I am confident my creator makes no mistakes. And after battling my emotions sober I course correct when I am wrong.  I get so mad I I refuse to stay in places that harm me; and you cannot either. 

First step is: Strengthening my right knee so I csn jump and sprint. I need lunges, core, glute bridges, squats. 

Step 8:

My dad is sleeping soundly...he is snoring softly on the sofa couch and my mom is undoing her twists. My grandma for a second is not worried about "going home," she often gets disoriented because her memory.

I pray she recooperates it. But she is a lot gentler also now that she needs support. We are all watching a testimony of a pilot who prayed and Jesus saved 283 people on a failing plane.

Step 9:

I think about my own life. And how God has heard my own desperate cries. I did not think I would live to see 27. It has been a decade since thoughts of suicide plagued me, I am happy to overhear from my sister Norita that even though sometimes I am not told directly...I impact a lot of people positively. My mother never accepted diagnostics in the american mental hospital that I was a aggressive person. She never left my side.

Accept when the hospital staff  forced her too. I was young. And I was scared. Why am I talking so fast? I thought. I cannot sleep. All my pain is resurfacing from past things that have hurt my feelings that I have overcome today. 

I can't say everything. It will be too long. 

But I do know I traveled to Colombia on an expired passport. You cannot leave the country on a expired passport. That is law. But I did. Because if God is for you not even the law can be against you. 

I had sores on my hands and feet that itched and swelled and ardian-God gave me good friends to animarme befor I left. Their gentleness impacted me. 

Today-about a week later only scars are there. I do not feel pain.

My hair tangled like crazy so many days swimming..happily...in a three day celebration.

My mother gently detangled it for me in two beautiful french braids while I say on the floor between her legs.

Oh, and when I was outside...someone said I looked like a athlete. : )